To Be One of the Living
ByKora
Spike stood in the middle of Sunnydale's park, watching couples walk by.
It was a full moon night and there were several diamonds stars sparkling in the sky making it, all in all, a romantic evening.
Spike knew that if Dru had been out tonight she would have rambled on about how the stars spoke to her and how the moon bleeds and sings. Spike missed that, he missed her. But she was gone, leaving him for another,
and he'd have to accept that. He didn't know why he'd chosen to come back to Sunnydale, he hated this town and especially the Slayer in it, but without Drusilla he had no where else to go.
As he watched the couples walk by he considered having a feast on a pair of them.
*That would certainly burst their happy little bubbles. I hate the whole
flowers and hearts scene. *
Spike considered the option of feeding but changed his mind, after all, he had had a good snack on some wandering girl when he first entered town and was pretty much full.
His thoughts drifted to the Slayer and he wondered what she was doing on this, a romantic evening.
*Probably bemoaning my oh-so-wonderful sire, what a waste of time. Or she's driving stakes into the hearts of those pitiful cardboard cut out vampires that tend to lounge around here. Some of us vampires are a dime a dozen.
Only a few of us, ME being one of them, are actually good at what we do. *
Spike found a large oak tree and sat against with a defeated sigh. Without Drusilla he had no one to talk to. As he looked at the walking human blood bags he almost felt a twinge of envy.
They were weaker than him but they all had friends and happy little lives and right now..
Right now he had nothing.
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Far in the treetops above Spike's head she sat, hidden in the shadows.
She was suprised he didn't smell her, for she had recogonized him as a Vampire and knew some of them had those kind of heightened senses.
She couldn't help but smile down at him, which was an odd thing for her to do especially since she hated the male species.
Her name was Anyanka, she was known as the "Patron Saint of Scorned Women" and had never in her whole existence given a damn about the male gender.
But as she watched him sit there, alone and lost in himself, she for once felt pity.
It just did not seem fair that he should suffer.
He was scorned, was he not?
And she protected scorned people.
Usually women and women alone but her heart reached out to him and she sighed.
She slowly slinked down the limbs of the tree and listened to him as he spoke to himself.
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He sighed, speaking quietly under his breath to himself, "I wonder what it would be like to be out there, having family and friends and all that crap.
I mean I have no doubt that it would be horrible to be one of them again and I can't even believe I am thinking of it now. But I wonder.."
He let out a groan, "Oh bloody hell! How I miss you, Dru."
He felt his eyes sliding shut, suddenly exhausted, "I wonder what it would be like though. I wish I knew what it would be like to be one of the living."
Anyanka smiled and slipped a necklace off from around her neck and placed it on Spike with the most gentle of care.
"It is done." She whispered then giggled and vanished.
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Spike awoke slowly. He grunted in annoyance, chiding himself for falling asleep, lord knows how much time he had before the sun would come up and fry him like an egg.
He opened his eyes and jumped.
He looked around him wildly, gasping hysterically, as he tried to catch himself. He was in a room, a classroom, and the sunlight outside flittering in through the blinds.
The sun was up and he was alive? He wasn't dust?
And to top it all off he was in school?
He heard a bell ring loudly from somewhere and students started to flood into the room. He realized slowly that he was sitting in a desk though he had no idea how he got there.
*WHAT THE BLOODY HELL IS GOING ON!?*, His thoughts thundered.
He looked down at his hands and touched his face and then quickly slapped himself sharply.
He blinked and clenched his teeth at the unexpected sting of the slap across his face and nodded to himself.
*Yup, Still here*
He was still dazed as to what was happening when SHE walked in. Buffy Summers smiled and waved to a few people in classes. She strode over to him, wearing a short light blue miniskirt and a white T-shirt; her hair pinned up on her head.
She carried her purse and bookbag and quickly took a seat next to him.
He looked at her with wide eyes.
Was she crazy? Didn't she recognize him? Why hadn't she screamed bloody murder and jumped for his throat? Why hadn't she reached into her purse and pulled out a stake and plunged it into him? What WAS going on?
Buffy saw him staring at her and her eyes narrowed, "What are you looking at?"
Spike searched for his voice, "I.."
Before he could start asking her frantically about what in the world was going on a tall, slender looking woman walked in.
She had raven hair, glasses, and a very long pointy nose. She scratched her name; 'Ms.Crandell', on the board and sighed, "Hello students, I hope you all had a good weekend and finished your English homework."
Ms.Crandell sat at her desk at the front of the room and opened the large English book on it when she looked up and saw Spike.
She stood up again quickly, "Oh yes, I forgot! Everyone we have a new student, please welcome William to the class, he's sitting over there next to Ms.Summers."
Everyone turned and glanced at Spike, who at that moment, actually wanted the sun to make him explode into dust. He'd rather be nonexistent than here.
Slowly everyone turned away again and began to pay attention as Ms.Crandell droned into the lesson.
Buffy, however, still eyed Spike. She bit the end of her pencil and found herself smiling at him.
He was rather attractive, with his pale skin, blonde hair, and high cheekbones. She wished that she had gotten a better look into his eyes though.
Spike could feel Buffy's eyes drilling into him and turned.
Buffy spoke before he could, "Hi, I'm Buffy." She held out her hand,
"William, right? I didn't know we were getting a new student."
Spike stared at her hand wearily, not trust her friendliness a bit.
*I'll take her hand and she'll pick me up and throw me out the bloody window. * He thought.
Buffy frowned a bit, upset that he wouldn't return her warm introduction, and pulled back her hand.
Spike caught her face and was caught between being irritated by her reaction to him and all that was going on and feeling like a jackass for being rude.
Of course, being a vampire, when had he needed to be polite?
*Am I still a vampire? * He thought confused, as he looked out the window quickly to see the sun shining brightly as if mocking him.
He turned back to Buffy and almost felt his mouth drop open at his own actions as he reached out quickly and took her hand in his, shaking it gently, "Yes, I'm William. Everyone calls me Spike though"
*Did I just say that! To the bloody Slayer, who should all ready KNOW me!
What kind of game is this? What is she playing at? What's going on? How is this happening? All these unanswered questions are making my head feel like it's going to burst! *
"Spike? Cool, I like it. So what's your last name Will..er..I mean Spike? I don't think I heard the teacher say it."
Name? Last name, he could hardly remember his first name much less his last one. He looked around for an answer and saw the chalkboard at the front of the classroom.
"Chalkboard."
"What?" Buffy asked.
"I mean..." Spike saw Ms.Crandell's name scrawled on the board, "Crandell.
Yeah, that's it. William 'Spike' Crandell."
"Crandell? Werid, you have the same last name as the teacher."
"I know. I thought the same thing when I came into class." He answered quickly.
Suddenly the bell blared again and Spike wondered how time had gone so fast and more importantly where he was suppose to go now and even more importantly what was happening.
Buffy smiled at him, "Listen, Spike. Since you're new in town would you like to hang out with me tonight? I could take you around the town. We could go to The Bronze."
"Sure." Spike said quickly, his mind screaming at him, asking him what he thought he was doing.
*I seem to have an advantage here. The Slayer apparently doesn't remember me and that gives me the upper hand. I can kill her easy now.*
But how? He obviously wasn't a vampire anymore, he was out in the sunlight and doing fine.
*Oh I'll find a way. * He thought with a grin.
Buffy scribbled down an address on a sheet of paper and smiled at him,
"Here's directions to The Bronze. I'll meet you there around 6, okay?"
"Okay. I look forward to seeing you." Spike said softly, holding back the peels of laughter.
Buffy blushed, "Same here."
Buffy left and Spike chuckled, he didn't know what was going on or how he got here but all he knew was that he had an upper hand here. Now he could finally finish off the Slayer.
To Be Continued...